Don't Sweat The Small Stuff...Ya, I Wish!

I am aware that I serve a big God, I know that my God is huge and he makes stuff happen. If I am so sure of this why can't I bring him the small stuff and trust that he will handle it. I have a tendency to sweat the small stuff, and boy do I sweat buckets over it, but when it comes to the big stuff I am the first one to jump head first! Jesus is the way to eternal life? Sign me up! God can do big things in the city? I'm in! God is mighty to save? Praise Jesus! God can handle my relationships, my job security and my finances? Um....ya sounds good.... .

I feel like my relationship with God has grown leaps and bounds over the past two years but there is still something I struggle with and can't shake off: Not worrying about the small things on a daily basis. Don't get me wrong, I know without a doubt that my God can provide for me, it is just a matter of letting go and allowing him to do it HIS WAY. God's way is without a doubt better than my way, but I can't let go of "my way" because I get it. I can understand my way, it doesn't confuse me. However, since I can not fully understand God's thinking because he is way bigger than me it makes me hesitant. I am hesitant to trust a God who has delivered millions out of captivity....how does that make sense. Well it doesn't, that is why God is great and I am not. I get all of these things, I struggle with all of these thoughts and feelings but I just can't let go. I don't want to let go of my controlling tendencies!

I want to control who I am dating and where I am working. I want to control what other people think about me and where I am going in life. I want, I want, I want. I understand that as sinners we all still have selfish desires for our life, but I am trying hard to shake this controlling behavior because it is just ridiculous. I need to realize that the same God I trust to serve for eternity is the same God that will provide for my present needs and wants.

and the cry of my heart is to bring You praise from the inside out Lord my soul cries out.