The ridiculousness just keeps on coming!!

Goodness!

These six horrific "young adults" are why I now believe physical punishment should still be allowed in schools. Watch the show for 5 minutes and you too will be converted!


NYC Prep on Bravo TV

how great You are.

I often wonder how many people notice a particular theme in my writings on this blog. It is very rare that I will blog about anything other than my relationship with God on here. I don't like to share the messy details of my love life or the struggles of just being me unless it brings God the glory in the end. I think this stems from having to keep my life semi-private for 5 years because I knew students would be all up in my business via FaceBook or MySpace, and even though I don't work at HP anymore, I still like to keep it personal. In addition to that I am just generally not an emotional person in public.

Now what is the purpose of this posting you say? I don't know, I say. I have a lot of personal things going on, and while it would feel nice to vent to the whole world about it and receive pity and praise I just can't bring myself to do it. It'd feel too weird, too selfish...so I just write about God. I write about God to distract me from the things that trouble me; I love it because God isn't selfish, he isn't pathetic sounding, he doesn't whine and complain, and he doesn't lose hope sometimes. But I do and focusing on Him makes that all go away. So after writing only two short paragraphs I feel better about things. It is amazing how God blesses you with an interest in something, in my case writing, in order to provide you with comfort and his peace. Amazing.



then sings my soul, my Savior God to thee, how great thou art.

Happy Father's Day!

Dear Lord,

Thank you for being my Heavenly Father even though I stumble on a daily basis. Thank you for your gift of salvation and that I get to spend eternity with you! :)

You are awesome!
Love,
Traci

Don't Sweat The Small Stuff...Ya, I Wish!

I am aware that I serve a big God, I know that my God is huge and he makes stuff happen. If I am so sure of this why can't I bring him the small stuff and trust that he will handle it. I have a tendency to sweat the small stuff, and boy do I sweat buckets over it, but when it comes to the big stuff I am the first one to jump head first! Jesus is the way to eternal life? Sign me up! God can do big things in the city? I'm in! God is mighty to save? Praise Jesus! God can handle my relationships, my job security and my finances? Um....ya sounds good.... .

I feel like my relationship with God has grown leaps and bounds over the past two years but there is still something I struggle with and can't shake off: Not worrying about the small things on a daily basis. Don't get me wrong, I know without a doubt that my God can provide for me, it is just a matter of letting go and allowing him to do it HIS WAY. God's way is without a doubt better than my way, but I can't let go of "my way" because I get it. I can understand my way, it doesn't confuse me. However, since I can not fully understand God's thinking because he is way bigger than me it makes me hesitant. I am hesitant to trust a God who has delivered millions out of captivity....how does that make sense. Well it doesn't, that is why God is great and I am not. I get all of these things, I struggle with all of these thoughts and feelings but I just can't let go. I don't want to let go of my controlling tendencies!

I want to control who I am dating and where I am working. I want to control what other people think about me and where I am going in life. I want, I want, I want. I understand that as sinners we all still have selfish desires for our life, but I am trying hard to shake this controlling behavior because it is just ridiculous. I need to realize that the same God I trust to serve for eternity is the same God that will provide for my present needs and wants.

and the cry of my heart is to bring You praise from the inside out Lord my soul cries out.