I Am Boring.

I decided that if I am going to tell people I have a blog I should actually write (or type) in it. However, I have been seriously struggling over what my next blog should be about. Yes, I said struggling...that is just how boring my life is, I have nothing else that I need to worry about other than my blog.  Sad? Yup it sure is. I know that my life is bound to get a bit crazy here soon so I am enjoying this state of boredom. So sorry for the disappointment, I live a boring life but in the end I think that is a good thing. I hate drama and would rather not experience any in the near future...or ever.

So for the mean time until something awesome happens...this is to be continued...

A Season of New Beginnings.

As I enter a season of new beginnings I am learning more and more everyday that my God is faithful. In my moment of transition He continues to provide for me daily. I will be honest, at the beginning of the summer I was lost. I had a feeling of insecurity and doubt. It felt like God had stripped me from my comfort zone and abandoned me. How wrong was I to ever think that God would leave me, it was just my fear that blinded me from the presence of Him in the everyday details of my life. 

Back in May I prayed that God would use my life for His purpose only. I felt as if I was living for too many other things: a job status, financial security and other insignificant things. I wanted to know that at the end of the day I did something to benefit God's kingdom. Working 14 hour days that did not glorify Him in the long run was just not cutting it. I went into this summer with only one job, I usually have about 3, so needless to say I was very scared about what was going to happen with my plans. Here comes the amazing part, in the midst of rejection and fear, God's many blessings began flowing into my life. He blessed me with the ability to get a new car and new apartment, both which are major upgrades and I know He is in the works for a new job (whatever that may be). God is good!!!

I was almost hesitant to "blog" about this topic because I feel like it could give off the wrong impression. I feel like you could take this and think I am trying to glorify myself by surrendering my life to God but that is not the case at all!!! I just wanted to share the amazing blessings that God gives to those who love Him. I couldn't be more of a mess, I don't deserve the things He has provided for me because of all my failures. I am struggling with things that I feel like I will never conquer but in the end my battle was already won and that is my only hope. When I look back on this summer and see God providing for me DAILY on just 1 salary as opposed to 3 I can't help but smile. God's grace and love for his creation is amazing!

"So I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned in awe of the One who gave it all. So I'll stand, my soul Lord to You surrendered, all I am is Yours!"